A to Z Blogging Challenge · Faith

C is for Chanting

Words wear out after a while, especially religious words… When a prayer or a psalm or a passage from the Gospels is chanted, we hear the words again… We remember that they are not only meaning but music and mystery. … Of course, chanting wears out after a while too.

Frederick Buechner, Whistling in the Dark


One of my children said that when people pray prayers together in a service they sound like robots. I suppose it could sound that way.

I like how Buechner refers to them as music and mystery.

They are polished rocks, made smooth and beautiful by time and use.

poetry

Talking to Martin Hopkins

Hey, Martin!
I am angry! Disheartened —
Kept that dory near your boat
[FLOAT!

GOD DAMMIT!}
You know, we ran the gamut
Of Nantucket fishing holes
Shoals

I’m waiting —
Waiting — we should be baiting
Trawling hauling up some catch…
Scratch

That daydream!
Sitting on this pier, sunbeam
Flickers on the water, but
What?

What happened?
You’re gone. I tip my cap and
Move on. But, brother, I cry
Why?


This is my response to the W3 prompt by Leslie Scoble. (Congrats, Leslie!)

The prompt: Write a monologue poem in which a character—historical, fictional, or original—takes center stage. Step into their voice and let them speak. Who are they, and whom are they addressing? Reveal their personality through their words, tone, and actions.

  • Set the Scene – Your character must be seated on a bench. It could be a park bench, a courtroom seat, a workbench, or even the dreaded school “naughty bench.”
  • Use Subtext – What remains unsaid is just as important as what is spoken. Let hidden emotions or unspoken truths add depth.
  • Engage the Audience – Though alone, their words should feel directed at someone or something—whether a specific listener, a memory, or the universe itself. 
  • Finish Strong – End with a revelation, a twist, or a lingering thought that leaves an impact.

This is loosely based on some family history of my great-grandfather, Martin Hopkins, who was a Nantucket fisherman who died when his schooner went down in a storm in 1899.

A to Z Blogging Challenge · elderly

B is for Boredom

You can be bored by virtually anything if you put your mind to it… To be bored is to turn down cold whatever life is offering you at the moment. It is to cast a jaundiced eye at life in general including most of all your own life. You feel nothing is worth getting excited about because you are yourself not worth getting excited about.

~~ Frederick Buechner, Whistling in the Dark


I can honestly say that boredom has not been a part of my life. Instead of nothing to do, I have a thousand things to do and not time enough for them all.

I liked this quote because it reminded that the people who are bored are simply not engaged in life. I think about the pall of depression that can settle over our elderly who are in long-term care settings. It’s hard to be engaged there — but a visit from a friend or family member can brighten a whole day. It sparks memories and conversation. It reminds them that are loved and remembered and valued.

A to Z Blogging Challenge · Faith

A is for Apologists

“C. S. Lewis once said something to the effect that no Christian doctrine ever looked so threadbare to him as when he had just finished successfully defending it. … In order to defend the faith successfully — which is the business of apologists — they need to reduce it to a defendable size. It’s easier to hold a fortress against the enemy than to hold a landscape.”

~~ Frederich Buechner, Whistling in the Dark

A is for Apologists defending a landscape, not a fortress.

My faith is pretty threadbare these days. I look at my country embracing “Christian” principles and am ashamed.

Jesus never behaved the way these people are behaving. We’re back to The Crusades, a most shameful part of Christian history.

When we feel that we have to defend God, we are, in a sense, thinking ourselves bigger and stronger than God. He doesn’t need me to defend Him. Seriously.

What He wants is for me to be kind and loving. To emulate Him.

We “defend” God not with a sword, but by being kind. We demonstrate not with angry words and violent actions, but with gentleness. If someone thinks differently than we do, we still call them beloved, not lunatic.

I will defend the landscape that is my faltering faith by planting seeds. My sword has been beaten into a plowshare.

gratitude

TToT — March 30

Well, I finally let my employer know the date for 1my hip replacement surgery. Yes, I’m thankful that it’s going to happen. It gives me hope that when the pain is bad it will not always be so. It took me a couple of weeks to put that date on the work calendar, in part because the news had to settle in my head before I could share it. I haven’t had a surgery in close to 25 years so this is a little anxiety-provoking.

My son had 2hip surgery on Monday. His was a bigger and different surgery than what I’m having. He was told he should plan on five days in the hospital following the surgery. He went home on Wednesday, though. I’m taking that as a good sign.

My replacement for my church job has been struggling. I went over multiple times this week to help her. I am SO thankful that — whether it’s genetics or how I was raised — I have the ability to 3listen, to 4think, and to 5learn. Honestly, those are things I take for granted. Seeing them missing in someone gave me pause.

I am also thankful for 6Frederick Buechner. I’ve had a bookshelf of his books for years, but I finally started reading him. SO GOOD. I find that I am constantly jotting down quotes from him to help me remember his wisdom, his humor, the way he ties together everyday things with the spiritual. In fact, the book I started the other day, Whistling in the Dark: An ABC Theologized, gave me the idea of using him as a launchpad for the 7April A-to-Z Challenge. I didn’t complete the challenge last year, but I’ll try again this year. It will be a Buechner quote and a little collage to go with it.

The new director of the facility where I work started having 8staff meetings once a month. You are probably wondering what’s so great about that. Let me tell you — we’ve never had staff meetings before, the kind where anyone who works there can attend. It’s huge. He has had two now, and after each one I have felt encouraged and happy about the place I work.

The director shared a recent 9story about staff intervening on behalf of a little girl. It was the kind of story that made me feel sad for the girl, sad for the world, angry at the situation, and proud of my co-workers.

I had 10lunch with my youngest daughter yesterday. Grown up children are the best!

fiction

Different

“How many times have I told you to simply fit in?” Vikrati said.

“But, Dad!” Hernan pressed his lips together. “I try! Look what I’m wearing!” He brushed his hands down his body, over the worn Florida t-shirt with a flaking image of the sun setting on the ocean and the faded blue jeans. He gestured towards his worn canvas sneakers. “This is how all the kids dress!”

“Fitting in is more than your clothing,” Vikrati replied. “It’s -“

Hernan interjected. “Dad, I’m doing well in school, but not too well. I make sure I get things wrong on the tests. I turn in papers late sometimes, just to get the lower grade. I sit in the back and sometimes talk when the teacher is talking, just to get in trouble.” He sighed. “I’m really doing my best!”

Vikrati sighed too. He looked at the boy. His shoulders were slumped and his head was down. Clearly, he was trying.

“Our mission is important,” he finally said. “It’s not just our family in this town, but there are thousands and thousands of us around the world.”

“I know,” Hernan said. “I don’t think I’ve ever done anything to make anyone suspect that I’m any different from them.”

“Then how do you explain this?” Vikrati asked. He pulled half a drinking glass from a bag. There was a sharp jagged edge where the upper half had been bitten off.

Hernan paled. “I’m sorry, Dad. I was just so hungry.”


This is my contribution to Unicorn Challenge. The rules are simple: no more than 250 words and use the photo as a prompt.

poetry

Emotions as Objects

This is the W3 Challenge for this week, given by Anupama, the Poet of the Week.

  • Challenge: Reimagine emotions as objects;
    • What if feelings took shape? Anger could be a blade, sharp and biting. Loneliness might be an echo in an empty room;
  • Poetic form: Any
  • Length: No more than 12 lines

I struggled with this. My first attempt was using the Irish Snam Suad. I put the rules below the poem — and I, of course, didn’t follow all of them. Also, is introvert an emotion or just a state of being?


A closed box
Rarely talks
Readily

Disconcert
-ed by crowds
Too too loud
In a shroud

Introvert


Rules for Snam Suad:

  • all lines have 3 syllables with the following rhyme pattern: aabcdddc
  • lines four and eight are 3-syllable words, all other lines end in monosyllabic words
  • lines two and three share consonance
  • lines three and four, six and seven, and four and seven share alliteration
  • line seven uses alliteration

Frankly, I was not satisfied with my introvert poem so I tried again with a different Irish form: Deibide baise fri toi and different object-emotion pairing. Water — Peace. It makes sense to me, but I’m not sure I communicated it.


The water —
When the world is a-totter
I go to the lake to lease
Peace

Sea, river
Stream, pond — they all deliver
From the frenetic to calm
Balm


Rules for Deibide baise fri toi:

  • The poem and/or stanzas within the poem are quatrains (or 4-line stanzas).
  • Rhyme scheme for each stanza is a simple aabb pattern.
  • Lines one and two rhyme on a two-syllable word; lines three and four rhyme on a monosyllabic word.
  • Line one has three syllables, line two has seven, line three has seven, and line four has one
gratitude

TToT — March 23

I realized today that I forgot to write Ten Things of Thankful last week!

Does that mean that I wasn’t grateful for anything last week? Absolutely not! It simply means that I forgot because I was pretty busy.

What was I busy with? Well, I was quite honored to be chosen as the 1Poet of the Week for the W3 Challenge. That means that the previous Poet of the Week (Val/Murisopsis) liked my poem, Personal Creed, so much that she chose me to be the next one. It also meant that I was charged with the task of choosing the next Poet of the Week by giving my own challenge. I challenged the poets to tell me a story in any poetic form.

That meant that I was reading, rereading, commenting, and rereading again (is that re-rereading?) the poems that were submitted for my prompt. Gosh, I loved so many of those poems. In the end, I chose a poem by a poet I don’t remember having read before — Jaideep Khanduja — who wrote a poem called, 2‘You, Me, and the Catastrophe of Love (A Love Story With a Side of Chaos)’. I laughed. I cried. I wish I lost 15 pounds, (obscure Stephen Colbert reference), but I mostly fell in love with this poem.

So — there you have it. My excuse for not writing a gratitude post, and two things for which I’m grateful.

For over a year now, I’ve been working two jobs. My first job — at a fitness facility — is literally the first full time job I’ve held since 1984. When my oldest son was born, I quit working. I did a little part-time work here and part-time there. I’ve learned that if you want to impress “accomplished” people, just tell them that you’ve lifeguarded part-time or been a stay-at-home mom. They’ll offer glib patronizing nonsense. Meh.

Anyway, I took a job working full-time at the front desk at the fitness facility in 2022. As it turned out, I asked too many questions and moved up the ranks. I’m now in my own office selling memberships. I miss the front desk. Members tell me they miss seeing me. I tell them that they moved me into an office to keep me out of trouble. That may be partially true.

All this is to say that I am thankful for 3my job at the gym.

Recently we got a new facility director. I met with him Friday to 4pitch an idea for a new position: Senior Specialist. We focus on families and kids and young adults, but our country is aging. Heck, I’m aging! I want someone to understand and be the voice for our seniors. I have SO many ideas.

I pitched my idea. 5It was well-received. YAY! Now, it has to work its way up through Foundation that oversees us.

In the meantime, however, my second job is at a church. I told the rector in January that I couldn’t continue the two-job routine. Honestly, I loved that job too — maybe more than the gym job. I needed the benefits offered by the gym so I put in my resignation at the church. 6The rector hired my replacement. I worked with her last week to train her — and, just like that, I’m done. It’s a relief. Imagine working only 40 hours in a week. I’ll find out this next week.

Quick — four more things for which I am thankful

7Lunch with my son and his family today. Delightful!

8A lesiurely walk on a nature boardwalk through a swamp

9Pussywillows — I saw them in the swamp. I love pussywillows.

10An edgy sermon at church, reminding us that God is the God of the oppressed. (Exodus 3:7-9) “I hated that sermon,” one woman whispered to me as she passed me on the way out of church. I smiled inwardly and was grateful. Maybe she will think about what was said.

fiction

What Needs to Be Done

“There it is,” Dad said. He pointed into the valley at the village nestled there. The brick homes were close beside each other.

Donovan stood on tip-toe to see. “How long will it take us to get there?” he asked.

“No more than an hour,” his father replied. “There’s a road. It’s overgrown but if we stay on it, the walk will be easier.”

Donovan asked, “What will we do when we get there?”

“You know what needs to be done. We’ve talked about it.”

“I’m not sure I can do it, Dad,” Donovan said.

His father stopped and knelt down. He took Donovan by the shoulders and looked him squarely in the eye. “This is important,” he said, emphasizing the last word.

“But… but… they don’t look like us. They don’t talk like us,” the boy said.

“That’s why this has to be done,” his father said. “You have what you need in your pack, right?”

Donovan unzipped it and looked inside. “Dad, I really don’t think I can,” he said again.

“C’mon,” his father said. “Let’s walk.”

They walked in silence. Donovan lagged more and more behind. The overgrown road masked his dragging feet.

“You can do this, boy,” his father said, sounding snappish.

Finally, they arrived. As they walked toward the town square, curious people peered out of windows. Some came out to follow them.

When they reached the square, both took off their packs and reached inside.

“We’ve come in friendship,” they said and extended…


Extended what? What did they pull out?

This is my response to the Unicorn Challenge. The Unicorn Challenge is the easiest (rule-wise) challenge: no more than 250 words with the photo as a prompt.

So? What do you think? Is DEI dead? Or is there hope?

poetry

Listen: an almost limerick

I met a prattling woman
From her mouth, the words kept a-comin’
Critical talk-talk-talk-talk
Like a hen: bawk-bawk-BAWK
’til I finally exploded and said,
“You realize, don’t you, that you aren’t the only person in this room,
or this organization,
this town,
this country,
or this world,
right?
You need to stop talking.
Stop talking.
Listen.
Take a breath.
Other people have thoughts and feelings.
They may be different than yours but they are just as valid.
The biggest problem right now in this country isn’t
transgender troops or
government waste or
Venezuelan gangs.
It’s that people don’t listen.
They don’t.
They talk over people.
They mock.
They belittle.
They shut down conversations.
They think everything is about them.
Please stop.”

Actually I didn’t say that. But I woke up in the middle of the night wishing I had.


This is my response to this week’s W3 prompt: write an Almost Poem, a poem that’s almost something, but not quite.

Actually, I’m not sure how almost this is. It’s based on my day yesterday. Or a snippet of it.

Congrats to Jaideep, this week’s Poet of the Week. I HIGHLY recommend reading his poem You, Me and the Catastrophe of Love. It’s amazing!