I have a thousand questions.
I think I’ve always been this way, too. I have two distinct memories of my mother expressing her frustration to me regarding all my questions.
One was when she was pregnant with my youngest brother and a button flew off her housecoat. I don’t remember the actual question I asked, but I do remember her response — “It’s because of the baby!” I suppose I should I have known that but I didn’t. Maybe I had already asked her 653 questions about her growing belly or maybe she had already tried to tell me 653 times about this new member of the family who would be arriving soon. In any event, it all became real when the button flew off her housecoat.
The second time was several years later. On the kitchen counter I had found this interesting looking plastic circle thing. I could spin it and I could see that there were little pills inside. My mother saw me playing with it and snatched it away.
“What’s that?” I asked.
“It’s mine,” she said.
“But what is it?” I persisted.
“It’s so I won’t have any more babies,” she snapped, and she sounded so angry at me and all my questions that I learned to keep most of them to myself. I had a lot more questions about that plastic circular pill dispenser — but those questions wouldn’t be answered for many years.
But questions — I love questions.
I started gathering all the questions in the Bible into my journals.
Reducing a story to questions brings out a poignancy we might miss otherwise. Take these four questions, all asked by Isaac in the same chapter:
I’m always working through a section of the Old Testament and a section of the New Testament concurrently — one OT question per day and one NT question per day. The same same few days when I was writing Isaac’s questions, I journaled these questions asked by Jesus in the book of Matthew:
The very first question in the book of John is “Who are you?”
So many questions about identity!
When I was reading Howard Thurman’s books and books about Howard Thurman, I found that he had three questions he liked to ask young people. I scribbled them down on a post-it note that I keep handy
Sometimes, in yoga, when I’m trying to relax into long pose, I ponder those questions.
I ask God those questions, too — sometimes about Him, more often about me. Who am I? Who am I really?
God hasn’t snapped at me yet.
Things I like: questions.
Things I don’t like: When people look at me like I just asked the stupidest question on the face of the earth.