Dear Barbara,
Remember when
We used to pray
And say amen
To all of our
Troubles and cares
Passing them on –
Gone – to “One Upstairs”
Who heard our words
Read our mettle
Enclosing us
Thus to settle
And face what came–
Oh! Life was hard
Especially
Yours. See — one card
Then another —
Life dealt you crap
Death, illness, hell
Fell in your lap
Week after week
We bowed our heads
We wept, we prayed
Life frayed to shreds
Why did we stop?
I don’t recall
Did we give up?
Our cups to fall
And break, as did
Our friendship? I
Wish I knew what
Shut that door. Why?
Why do people
Move on from God,
Friends, prayers, tears?
Fears? Fatigue? Fraud?
I am a fraud
Yes, yes. That’s true
But we did pray
A day or two
I was out for a drive with a friend the other night, and suddenly I recognized the landscape, the roads, the buildings. It had been years since I had driven out there but I used to meet weekly to pray with a friend. She lived out there.
We stopped meeting rather abruptly some 20 years ago — and I don’t remember why. I don’t remember a falling out. I don’t remember a lot of things from those years. They were so stressful.
But the stresses in my life were miniscule in comparison with hers.
This poem came out of the hashing around of those memories.
I need to add that faith failures — the doubts, the fatigue — they are all MINE, not hers. Pretty sure, anyway.


